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October 29, 2007

Dark Dreams and Sweet Wishes

Category: My Inner Life

Am I drunk on tenderness, pain or vodka?

Contempt Play

Category: S&M Fantasies

Masochistic desires to be treated as worthless, experience fear: possibilities vs. fantasies. Humiliation is not a lifestyle choice.

October 28, 2007


Category: Bondage

An old homoerotic BDSM magaine with bondage covers.

October 27, 2007

Annoying Sadistic Impulses

Category: Emotional Health

Transitory confusion as my BDSM desires sort themselves out after the end of my prior relationship.

October 24, 2007


Category: Entertainments

My attempts - always failed - to enjoy pornographic movies.

October 22, 2007

The Paradox of Female Supremacy

Category: Gender Follies , Category: Questions & Observations by Others

If women say they aren't superior how can submissive men promote gynarchy as an ideology?

Libido Can Be Funny

Category: My Inner Life

Trying to sort out the physical and emotional compulsions at work in my sexuality now that I'm alone.

October 20, 2007

Pavlovian Preemptive Wanking

Category: My Inner Life

The effect of heavy masturbation on my masochistic desires.

October 17, 2007

Lessons of Three Years

Category: Prior Relationship

A simple summary of the erotic education afforded by a romance that included BDSM and fetishes.

October 16, 2007

MyDungeonSpace Account Cancelled

Category: F/m Weblogs

Creating a successful BDSM, kink or fetish site or community isn't easy and you can't charge for it.

Sexualities: How About None?

Category: My Inner Life

Asexuality and the odd nature of my own erotic psychohistory.

Switch Twitch

Category: My Inner Life

Sometimes my own sadistic and dominant desires overcome me.

October 15, 2007

Funny Ideas : An Example

Category: My Inner Life

How the mind works to create simple stereotypical views of BDSM interaction.


Category: S&M Fantasies

And so probably ends my thoughts about extended BDSM scenarios.

October 11, 2007

State of Richard Update

Category: Emotional Health

Damn, I can't sleep, I'm not getting anything worthwhile done.

October 10, 2007

Multiple Simultaneous Sadists

Category: S&M Fantasies

This bottom isn't very comfortable with the idea of serving, pleasing more than one top at at time.

October 9, 2007

Power Exchange

Category: In Search Of

More Durham, NC ISO BDSM: contemplating submission without emotional involement is a huge challenge.

Alt.com / CollarMe.Com Confusion

Category: In Search Of

Choosing a handle, identity, name for use for my search for tops in Durham, North Carolina.

October 7, 2007

Pickle Juice and Piss

Category: S&M Fantasies

A specialized version of kinky thirst scenarios.

October 6, 2007

Bad Love, Mad Love

Category: In Search Of

The romance that almost destroyed me, leaves me damaged, crippled to this very day.

Why Bad Things Happen to Good Masochists

Category: S&M Fantasies

More psychological sadomasochism involving isolation and neglect.

October 5, 2007

Is Romance Incompatible with D/s?

Category: Questions & Observations by Others

Dominant women who don't want to mix BDSM with love or romance.

October 4, 2007

The Whipping Fantasy

Category: S&M Fantasies

For a long time this was my greatest masochistic obsession.

October 2, 2007

The Romance of Boot Worship

How this sterotypical kink became both a form of expressing love and submission.

Reality Check

Category: In Search Of

Showing sane caution in searching for a dominant person in Research Triangle Park, NC.


Category: In Search Of

Examples of practical issues I may face in meeting anyone for BDSM play in Durham, NC.

October 1, 2007

Isolation and Neglect

Category: S&M Fantasies

Submissive desires involving lonliness and being rendered emotionally needy.


Category: S&M Fantasies

A youthful fantasy that captures surprisingly well a then invisible desire for helplessnes and powerlessness.