5 Kinks : Preamble

Following from my prior entry Alexandra and I had quite a good chat last night.

Down On My Knees has gone through at least three phases. Originally it was just a way to talk to Alexandra indirectly. In those very early days I wanted to share my every desire with her but without seeming pushy. Over time I found that I felt like talking about F/m relationships in a more general way (if only as a way of releasing the pent up energies of our separations). Now it is any aspect of fetish or BDSM that amuses we without worrying about orientation of gender and - of course - my love affair with Alexandra.

The one thing about broadening my purpose is that it was no longer clear to her how much any entry was written for the general audience and which were expressions of my desires. Given that I’m a polymorphous pervert those desires drift and shift over time. And - no matter what - I always have long list of kinks I’d like to at least try.

The simple abstract exploration of some fetishes caused my understanding of something them to evolve. Enforced chastity is a good example. The way orgasm denial was often presented often left me almost angry. (Though I was more interested in it myself than I remembered: it appears in both an early sketch and my original fetish checklist.) Thanks to Tom Allen and the men and women at Orgasm Denial I did learn that not every woman thinks a guy won’t be attentive without it.

Last night I told Alexandra I’d been thinking about doing a “Five Kinks I Most Wanted to Experience” list (something like that - might’ve been ten and I was (am) also thinking of a list of toys I hope we’ll use more).

She liked the idea and said she might do something similar (and - any bottom will agree - learning what is passing through your top’s mind is always an exciting idea).