A Masochist's Submission

A masochist can seem a greedy creature. He has so many sensations that he thinks he wants to endure. Each specific hunger can press on his imagination. At times a kink can block out almost everything else.

A polyfetishist like myself has an unabridged dictionary of kinks he hopes his Goddess will one day enable him to explore.

Enable him to explore. Without her sadistic enthusiasm what seems a sensual treat becomes something dry, unexciting.

Some masochists are not submissive. No reason they should have to be. But I am a very submissive masochist: I need for it to be her will. At its height I find a woman that loves me laughing at my suffering.

I’m shy of asking for what I want. Really I know Alexandra, my lover, wants me to be satisfied.

But Richard who adores her never wants to appear selfish.

One of the reasons for this site is to exhibit a catalog of my wishes, hopes and dreams.

And to be lucky enough for her to see hungers of mine that excite her.

We do explore pure S&M. It is good for practice and it is fun to explore those sides of us outside of D/s. Part of being a well-rounded couple.

But those abstract tests can never compare to when her cruelty is combined with my surrender.