Brain Pain
» Cravings
Humility adoration, deference, surrender.
The D/s portion of my psyche seems to have congealed around these emotions since I’ve found myself single.
Stringent bondage, strict discipline, fixed protocols.
Imagined means of achieving the former. Pretty typical.
I was feeling increasingly slavish just before the split so it is natural enough that the thwarted emotions would come to the fore.
Electro-stim, testicle squeezing, full body strapping.
And these are the physical S&M acts that seem to captivate my mind most nowadays. I don’t think the practices themselves say much. It is just my masochistic imagination craving pain. Your mind starts focusing on what would make you scream or cry. Could easily be other torments.
Frustration is annoying. Hopefully I’ll find a cure for it sometime this summer.
