Fetishes: P

I’m reviewing the checklist I sent to Alexandra before we ever met.

Persona training (in scene): sure.

With pronoun denial we’ll be entering this area when she gets back. (She might be back by the time you see this*, I’m writing a batch of these at a but spacing out publishing them.)

Attitude adjustment, conditioning sounds stirring and a little hair-raising You have to walk a careful fine line.

With persona training I have my often-stated fear that it could get too artificial to work. With stricter formality we may be getting where we want to be and possibly won’t go deeper. Really don’t know. Still lots to discover and learn.

Piercing (play, temporary): Scary but yes.

Nothing that interests her and I’d only do it to oblige.

Piss (drinking): only with regular partner. Probably only a limited amount.

One of those areas where you don’t know how much you can take. Or how far you really want to be pushed. It could be made horrifying which might be a good experience. Or not.

Pony play: fine.

Not the fancy expensive kind. There are many ways to do this. For me pulling a cart has been a deep and frequent dream. It was one of the reasons I had a privacy fence put around the backyard.

Prison scenes: fine.

Common fantasy at least among gay men I think. Nothing I expect us to do. But I was being thorough.

Punishment: expect it.

And adore her for it.

* This entry was written a week ago. As I sit here with her back, wholly suffused with happy romantic love I feel a faintly estrangement from the words above. Leaves me feeling a bit exasperated myself. We’ve long ago that our play is an expression of love. Probably stage fright.

Be nice to play with some pure S&M or as we did with bondage before she left. The trick will be figuring out what we can do without impeding the recovery of my back and neck.