Testicle Leashing: Instant Omnipotence
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We are on the home stretch as they say in baseball (or some sport). Only two or three more entries and my genitals will be exhausted. Happily I mean only what I have to say about them in the context of S&M.
Deepest Emotional Masochism
Sardax, master of smiling cruelty. Looks like a gentle squeeze. Go to his site, give him some money and see the image full-sized.
Sometimes I feel that the portion of my brain that luxuriates in the slave state is hardwired to my testicles. Not my cock, my balls.
The thought of testicle confinement - I don’t necessarily mean anything harsh - possibly even a rubber band would do it - blanks my brain. Most strongly the image of my testicles on a leash pushes me into a servile space.
Why?
I’m a sucker for bondage combined with novel torment.
Abed last night it hit me that I use the word torment too idiosyncratically. I’ve meant torment to denote a light experience. But it is a synonym for agony, excruciating pain. Idiolect is a vice to be avoided.
For a very long time I didn’t give my testicles much thought. Unless I accidentally bumped them into the corner of a table. And there was that time I scratched myself after crumbling a habaneros pepper.
They’ve just been hanging there to be enjoyed or ignored by other people.
My ancestors’ DNA was surely encoded with testicle self-protection. It’d be funny if the survival trait that led to the triumph of homo sapiens instead of homo something else were testicular sensitivity.
Whew! That looks heavy.
So I find myself looking at tiny collars, metal bands, weights and even fearful crushers that allow for microscopic manipulation. The last is the biggest surprise to me. There are no nerves in the male body more cognizant of pain. Then again I’m a masochist.
Why does bridling, restriction, management of my balls evokes such a strong response in me?
It isn’t my maleness: that is an artifact of what happened in my mother’s womb.
Maybe that seems like cheap avoidance. I’m male in social space not just biological fact. It having been to my advantage I’m glad to be tall and have masculine attributes. Had my chromosomes been dancing to a different mix I’d have emerged female. Hopefully it would’ve worked out just as satisfactorily.
Maybe it is just a sense of their vulnerability that is so deeply rooted I can’t consciously see it.
[Image Deleted] That I knew I wanted to post this Kami Tora illustration of a bound guy with his testicles leashed was one of my reasons for switching web hosts.
I’d hoped to close this with an image of some freakish horror like spiked ball crushers. Amazingly they don’t seem to be made. There are ball parachutes (device that circles the testicles holding weights) with spikes inside. Little metal studs really. Many of these toys aren’t as harsh as a first glimpse suggests.
Clean looking steel testicle clamps and crushers are frightening enough in themselves aren’t’ they?
Let me get back to my earlier mention of the abuse of the word torment. Instruments such as these don’t have to be used harshly. Plenty of juice is in the tease or threat. Knowing that a flick of your owner’s finger could leave you screaming is sufficient in itself. The mindfuck is enough. (You can unclench your legs now.) Of course some masochists may want more.
It is good to have something that moves you so forcefully. Who wants to belong to the class that finds its thrills in watching television?
Recently I came across a five page guide to genital play. Much better than the others I’ve seen online. Everything from Ball Busting (“is a mostly female-on-male fetish … “) to Zip Ties: Cock & Ball Torture (navigation is via the buttons on the bottom right of each page).
Comments
Nice reflections on the equivocal meaning of the word torment, Richard. I often use it to mean either “tease during foreplay” or “stimulate at the moment of climax.” You’re right that others may have different associations, and that could be problematic during negotiations.
If you’re interested in testicle torture you might be interested in the process of vasectomy reversal surgery.
Salient details: - It takes six hours - They inject novacaine - Since it takes six hours the novacaine wears off and you have to ask for more - You’re kept mildly sedated so you can’t move, but not so sedated you can’t think. - They use surgical drapes so you can’t see what they’re doing. - You can see what they’re doing on a video monitor, which also doubles as the micro-surgery microscope - Since you’re pretty drugged the attending nurses talk about you in the third person - You can feel everything while they’re prepping you - You have no idea if it’s the wouldn’t-be-your-type-even-if-I-were-gay-or-bi male nurse or one of the two unduely attractive female nurses who are repeatedly lathering and rinsing you - Then someone shaves you - Then the doctor comes in, with the novocaine - And the scalpels - When if he can’t get sperm flow through the reconnected vas diffrens he makes the incision much, much larger and begins making cuts in the epididimus looking for live sperm. - When he finds live sperm he stitches the vas to that. (Fortunately the micro-sutures are thinner than lint on a sweater. Unfortunately he has to make four stitches on the inner wall of each tube and six on the outer.) - When they’re done with one side they do the other. - When they’re all done they stitch you up. - Then you spend several days getting intimately acquainted with ice packs in your lap - Your testicles swell enormously - You’re not supposed to ejaculate for six weeks. - The resulting scars are fairly impressive.
I say this neither to brag nor as a particular turn-on, but instead to say I guess I can actually relate to testicle torture after all since, in a bizarre sense and only in retrospect, it wasn’t that bad. I really wouldn’t want to do it again (except maybe the prep for which, twilight-zone style, there was a two-thirds chance was confirmed-heterosexual fantasy material vs one-third chance it was disquietingly not.)
Posted by: figleaf | May 5, 2005 1:55 PM
Maybe I was making overly nice distinctions about ‘torment.’ In an erotic context its mildness is probably well known. I know that I’m in a loving relationship. And as much as it entertains me to speculate on the extremes I don’t want to mislead the strangers who wander my way. An impractical wish. In their ‘readerly’ fashion they’ll bring whatever is in them to my entries.
Having slept mostly with males I’ve never had a vasectomy. Glad you could appreciate the reversal as a novel experience. From your recounting it seems that the men who have violent fantasies of ball torture and enforced chastity should have the operation so they can enjoy its undoing.
Posted by: Richard | May 5, 2005 6:38 PM
Richard, my handle is pleasing97. the pleasing part should be obvious, the 97 part is for my favorite toy ( a toy with 4 wheels and goes fast) anyway, i don’t have any comments, but i do have some questions. i have a Master, he’s experienced, i finally found a Master who will do what i want him to do to me. anyway, the questions are, and i’ve seen a few sites that show this done, pins in the balls. should shoud i expect the out come to be??? second, i’ve always wanted this done, cruch ( actually break ) one or both of my nuts. what would the out come be??? in answering, i know there is a lot of pain involved, but i’m after trying to find out what the total out come would be physically. will a nut heal if broken??? and if so about how long. will a nut remain painful for years or perhaps just days, weeks or months while healing????? what fluid is in the balls besides blood and cum that can squirt out once pins are removed and how long does the pin hole or holes take to heal???? what kind of pain can be expected while the balls are healing??? i hope you can answer at least some of these questions or direct me to someone that can answer them. thanks you and by the way i’m not a kid, i’m 56. thanks again and i hope to hear from you.
Posted by: pleasing97 | October 13, 2005 3:05 PM
When people do the pins they are just (or trying to just) sticking them through the surface of the skin.
Testicles can be subjected to quite a bit of pain without going very far. One gripped in a testicle vise it will hurt when the pressure is released and then reapplied. Keeping it painful but safe.
Look, Im not condemning you for fantasizing about having a testicle physically damaged but:
Your age means that it will take longer for you to recover from an injury.
Does it take much thought to realize the pain during recovery will be awful and constant. And it wont be in and S&M context supplying the masochistic power to transform it into pleasure.
Im not someone you should consult with. Im not competent to have an opinion.
If you are sure you want to take the risk but want information you should use Google to find Medline or PubMed and see what you can find about recovery issues concerning recovery from testicle injury.
You want real medical expertise, not internet hearsay.
Posted by: Richard | October 13, 2005 3:47 PM