Notes on Humiliation I

A few random notes on the idea of D/s humiliation, emotional S&M if you will.

Can you establish a neat distinction between being humbled and humiliated?

When I'm on my knees before Alexandra I'm (normally) humble and some acts make me feel more humble. Licking her boots for example.

Humiliation I suspect needs to be degrading form of humbling. For me degradation pretty much means being forced to perform a repulsive act or defiled in some way.

Licking food off the floor, the harder, and the messier the more degrading.

Testicle and cock manipulation from teasing to torture. That central portion of the male anatomy is intimate, vulnerable and has a central place in much of our most private imaginings.

There's a series of 70s S&M photos of painted women twisting, yanking on men's cocks. I was never sure how painful those manipulations really were. Treating a man's private parts with contempt can't help but humiliate - pain isn't necessary. Hence the power the testicle leash had over me. Imagine having your balls fiddled with by forceps.

Certain kinds of bondage can be deeply demeaning but I want to write of that another time.

Certainly Alexandra's laughter which makes me feel so trivial is humiliating.

More notes to follow. Perhaps someone will share their own perspective with me.