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A submissive guy and I have communicated just a little bit. He writes.
it feels like you are inside of my head already
that you know what i am thinking
that you know what i need and desire
i so desire to know you better and for you to know me
it seems like we are so bonded already in that we are complete opposites
and opposites attract
what you desire to give i desire to receive
what you desire to do i desire to experience
I am so glad that I’m experienced enough in kink and online interaction to read that skeptically.
Because for my dominant component it is like crack cocaine.
Thankfully I do know that few people really know what they want. The dream once it meets reality often changes.
And that in investing so much in me he’s expecting an omniscience and omnicompetence that I don’t possess.
But I can’t deny it doesn’t conjure up images of him on his knees and of cheerfully hurting him.
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This is interesting. There is a strong desire in the kink communities I am in to be the first to give an inexperienced bottom or submissive the first of their kink-related experiences. As one of the most experienced bottoms in my social circle, this makes me decidedly more intimidating to play with, I am told.
Though even I can not deny that I miss some things about the days when everything, not just specific things, were new and unknown to me. The nervousness and wonderment of those days are fond memories.
Posted by: maymay | December 24, 2007 2:53 AM