Otherwordly Kingdom

On discovering or acquiring an interest in sadistic women I turned to usenet. From soc.subculture.bondage-bdsm.femdom I learned how to not seem needy, whiny and demanding.

From alt.sex.binaries.pictures.erotica.femdom I got lots of images. Back then there were many - for me anyway - compelling photographs. Mostly as I'd learn from RH-Media the folks behind Cruella and I've often suspected the Other World Kingdom.

I was really quite surprised that the Femdom fantasy photographs seemed more compelling and creative compared to the gay male S&M stuff I'd seen.

Actually the idea of being at OWK never excited me. I've never wanted an experience involving more than one slave and rarely more than one dominant. But the punishments and humiliations pictured were very exciting.

A couple of months ago I downloaded several trailers for Cruella videos. But it was only the other night that I watched them. Alexandra wouldn't have minded but while she was here I didn't have an urge to experience prefab fantasies.

Watching the trailers didn't do much for me. There's plenty of whipping, trampling and cursing. But I was only excited by a couple novel scenes: a man being driven around a pit with a whip and another being manhandled. Really I guess I'd be happier surrendering to Alexandra in any fashion. It is more who you give yourself to than what is done to you (not that I don't have my particular cravings).

Some of the scenes from the trailers were familiar from the days when the Femdom binaries were better. Particularly a sequence featuring harsh face slapping and chained testicles that I watched repeatedly long ago.

The OWK photos were often singular. I remember a photo of a man scrubbing a floor with a brush attached to his mouth.

And this sinister chair has always fascinated me:

I really don't know what it is about but he looks so wholly impotent and helpless.

And the human toilet chair knocked me for a loop:

What could be more degrading? I couldn't wipe it from my fantasies. Since OWK sells not just the chair but also a poster I guess many have felt likewise.

Often I've wished I could find a photo or two of a OWK Mistress who fascinated me. She wasn't in any conventional sense particularly attractive. She had a vampire's pallor. Her expression was always severe and heartless. So much so to be almost frightening.

I don't know that I'll ever really be able to go back to these images (especially since I deleted all that I had when I entered a relationship). But I'm glad to have had my masochist's imagination expanded. I learned quite a bit about my desires for degradation and humiliation from them.