Disparity of my D/s and Conventional Desires
» My Inner Life
Unashamedly I confess that I've recently come to need Cialis.
The other night Alexandra told me that even without the medicine I've never failed to have an erection when she kicks my cock. This hints that while Cialis does seem to increase the frequency, tenacity and quality of my erections that I don't actually need it.
More troublingly it suggests that the disparity between her sadistic and my masochistic appetites is deeper than I've suspected.
My hope - expectation - is that enough time in slave space would normalize things. My submissive side was long suppressed. But right now there's an urgency to recover my pleasure in traditional romantic sex.
Sexual inclinations often seem as inflexible as the laws of thermodynamics. I wonder what if anything I can do to shift my sexuality more toward the conventional.
