Focused Fantasies

The fantasy explorations that I wrote about yesterday were part of an effort to reignite my submissive and masochistic desires. (What could be less desirable with Alexandra back?)

I forbad myself boot worship and pet play because I wanted to find images other than the obvious easy ones.

But late yesterday afternoon I realized I’d just repeated an ancient fantasy with a slight variation.

Bondage that turns my genitals against me and long measured varied whippings: this is one of my oldest S&M dreams.

Other ideas passed through my mind as I let it wander for about an hour. Being whipped, tied to a post in our backyard. And I almost chose one with identical bondage and the hood but with me sitting on the futon as Alexandra worked my nipples and skin with clips, clamps and whatever toys appealed to her. Not sure why I didn’t go with that one.

The focused fantasizing did work. I’m feeling more aroused, anticipating what will happen.