Lost Libido

I’ve been feeling sexually neutered for the last several days. No fantasies, no desire to masturbate.

I hate it.

Lust can be so empowering. (Which really is the whole point of orgasm denial as some people practice it.)

I’m thankful that my romantic and sensual feelings are still alive. Thinking of smelling Alexandra’s hair and massaging her legs makes me happy.

Some of the D/s orientation is still intact. I cannot connect with my masochism. But the image of sitting at her feet is lovely and comforting.

I still want to lick her boots. So something is working deep down inside.

Perhaps if she were here, nibbling her ear or performing some submissive act would restore all the rest in a flash.

As always, sex is funny.