Oh, please do it to me!
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I was thinking of writing tonight about a feeling that my masochism is fading.
Alexandra is a sadist; if my complementary needs were to die it would be a real problem.
Unusual for Jay Em. I look at the bound man and what - purr? - growl? A part of me just says “Me please!” - “Oh, please do it to me!” The whipping continues until the hourglass runs out?
During a lull in tonight’s chat I found my mind drifting to the quirts and whips I bought while she’s been absent. Explosions of pain across my back and backside.
I’m used to my sexuality playing hide and seek with me. All the wonderful possibilities. It isn’t always easy to choose. Though romantic love has always chosen for me.
My sexuality is perhaps something like a boat drifting down a river. It passes over a rough spot of water, wobbles to and fro. The boat tilts one way, then the other.
Balance returns and it moves forward serenely.
No, I guess you don’t know what I mean.
Comments
“Alexandra is a sadist; if my complementary needs were to die it would be a real problem.”
Not really. I’d miss it for sure. But loving D/s is just a more convoluted expression of normal love.
Besides, we’d have no problem finding a slave as a couple.
I have to say though I don’t really believe you that your masochism is fading. I believe you may believe it, a little bit.
Posted by: Alexandra | May 29, 2005 1:20 PM
I guess it is normal enough for my desires to ebb and flow a little bit sometimes.
I wasn’t’ at all clear when I sad my masochism might be fading. With you distant my mind when it comes to D/s is focuses more on things like gentle dominance and erotic teasing. Acts more in line with my love for you.
But I know deep down I’m waiting to feel how those new quirts feel like and you mastering the single tail.
Posted by: Richard | May 29, 2005 2:40 PM