Pain
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Pain hurts. Doesn't sound like a revelation, does it?
It hurts even though I crave it. Alexandra's punishments always make me hasten to obey more quickly and thoroughly.
In recollection those short punishing strokes and slaps leave me with a glow. Indeed the day after Alexandra takes control of me I have a warm, satisfied feeling for hours. One of the reasons S&M can become an addiction.
I've yet to experience the kind of sustained pain that pushes a masochist to the point that endorphins flush through the body and convert pain into pleasure: masochist's ecstasy.
I'm sure the time will come but fear it will make D/s even more addicting.
Hopefully over time I'll recover my balance and feel equally driven by all aspects of my sexuality.
Comments
I recently had an experience where I was asked to hurt someone physically. I was scared at first, because I’ve never seen myself as being dominant in bed. His threshold is high which made every new thing I tried exciting and very addicting. He was suprised at how comfortably I adapted. The whole experience was like a waking point for me..
Posted by: Legz | November 12, 2005 3:09 PM
Finding your sexual capabilities unfold is one of lifes great joys.
More people would discover their capacity for unknown sexual pleasures are larger than they think if like you they were genuinely open to giving them a try.
Thanks.
Posted by: Richard | November 12, 2005 3:59 PM