Quality of Suffering
» Pain
Experiencing pain during my period of diminish masochism taught me a lesson.
The sadomasochistic power exchange isn’t an exercise in a physics laboratory. The velocity and weight of a whip or flogger don’t define the experience.
On my end it is what the masochistic bottom can offer. My offering being suffering.
It is so easy to think in terms of quantity. But S&M is about quality.
An evening when a light flogger is harder to bear than the nights when the strokes of a whip are easily absorbed am I not giving more when flogged?
In surrendering to Alexandra’s sadism the more it costs me to cope the greater my offering.
I’m not given to machismo. My masculinity is mellow. I’ve read a few accounts by masochists that sound as if their goal in suffering is to prove their manhood.
I think the only possible sane valuation is emotional cost. If I’m honestly enduring all that I can then what more could I give?
