S&M without D/s?

Been about ten days since we've played but I find I'm more accepting of that than I thought I would be.

Last night Alexandra told me that she was almost always ready to act as a sadist if not as a Domme. I had no idea.

I knew about my masochism long before I had any idea that I could feel fulfillment in surrender. I feared the latter might not be the case. But the first time she took me down to my knees I found that I give myself up readily.

S&M without D/s would allow me to, say, ask her to tie me up in a certain way, and use a specific toy on me X times. I wonder if my tolerance for pain would vanish without being in slave space. (Of course should I involuntarily drop into it I'd be wanting her to hit my X + 2 times to assert her will.)

While the idea of going for just pure S&M makes me a bit nervous it would give us a chance to learn more about the practical side of bondage and the assorted implements of pain we've accumulated.

And once she has me bound and a whip in her hand who knows what mood she might find herself in.