Evolution
» Prior Relationship
Mindfulness
Alexandra had expressed the wish that I look at her during D/s. I thought this would be a struggle: sexuality often makes you close your eyes as you drift off into a special universe. It hasn’t been. Keeping my eyes focused on hers has proven easy.
At the end of a session sometimes I’d pop too quickly back into my vanilla self while she was gradually leaving dominance behind. I’ve taught myself to wait for a sure sign that she’s ready for me to be just plain old me.
Progress
I came home from work and took a nap. We both I think assumed we’d play tonight.
We put on some music. And talked about the music, movies, friends, sexuality and gender.
Hours later I felt faint surprise there’d been no D/s.
A year ago I’d have fallen into a funk. Tonight I was happy with our talk. We were fulfilling our most basic roles: two companions sharing the adventure of life. Kink can come another time.
Your journey may be different and I wish you the best of it.
