Keeping My Nose to the Grindstone
» Prior Relationship
I must’ve seemed like an emotional yoyo to any recent reader of this site.
Fair enough: surely I’ve been such.
Work, work, and more work is giving me stability. Focusing on needful things, striving to correct what is wrong. This is the only sane, wise course.
Sorry if this doesn’t seem to be about D/s or S&M.
But it is, in a way.
The disorder of my life blocked what might have been. I was too distracted to loose myself in the joy of adoring her.
That the sheer joy of kneeling before brought tears to my eyes was proof of my need to humble myself before Alexandra in supplication and worship.
I may be a man who wants to surrender to his beloved.
So I need to be man enough to insure that my life isn’t so complicated that we can’t enjoy my giving of myself to her.
How I melt at the thought of Alexandra addressing me as “pet.”
Honey, I’m working as hard as I can to insure that the next time we are together it will be the best time possible. If my focus on these pedestrian issues makes me seem neglectful please understand my ultimate purpose.
