Living for Moments of Submission
» Prior Relationship
Today Alexandra wrote of her feelings of the various meanings of dominance. I’ll stay within a narrower focus.
In my daily life I’m variously ‘dominant’ and ‘submissive.’ I work for myself. It all depends on my decisions (and those of my partner). But I have to bow before obstacles and limitations over which I have no control.
And much of my mundane life is the same. You can control some things but often have to accept that you can’t have your own way.
What is my surrender?
It is being willing to be Alexandra’s pet, plaything, slave when she wants to take control. Wanting to fulfill her needs and being sure mine will never be forgotten.
Trusting her. Nutty fantasies aside without faith in the competence and care of the woman that owns you the giving of self would be forbidding.
And many very specific things. The joy of licking her boots. The electric jolt that courses up and down my spine when I see and hear her taking pleasure in torturing me.
When I can give myself to her I’m fulfilled, complete, satisfied in ways that I’d - literally - only dreamed of. But better than my dreams.
