Misunderstanding
» Prior Relationship
Yesterday Alexandra was acting playfully as my goddess. I thought of it mostly as a game. Sometimes when we're acting conventionally I make an invisible bow when handing her, say, a cup of soda.
Thinking it mostly a game I figured I had the right to say no.
After a meal Alexandra wanted me to go to the bedroom. A full stomach kills my sexual appetite. Thinking I could say no I demurred. She insisted. I went. I'd have done that with anyone I was in a relationship with.
Sexual interaction when you feel as sexualized as a sack of potatoes is a chore. So I watched the clock and waited for things to end.
This left me very much out of sorts and I upset Alexandra Nothing I really care to do to someone I care for.
But overall I like her acting as goddess in an informal way and hope we can make it work.
