My Failures ... Ah ... How Sad ... How Wasteful ...
» Prior Relationship
I wrote this for a forum but see no reason I shouldn’t share it with you here:
90 days passed and my beloved Alexandra had to return to England and I’m alone again.
We had many tender, sweet times together.
But only a little bit of kink.
I face some considerable, dull real-life problems. While nothing short of death would make me unaffectionate it did diminish my sexuality and my servility.
Even though having her collar me was always a happy moment, even though kneeling at her boots is a joy far to profound for me to try too really express, often I was dead to my submissive needs. Too weary to fulfill my needs or hers.
I kind of want to cry. Now, wouldn’t that be unmanly? (I’m just kidding, tears aren’t anything of which one should be ashamed.)
In a few months she’ll be back. Even if my problems aren’t solved, hopefully I’ll be able to break through the barrier created by quotidian concerns.
