On Wanting More Than Her

That my slavish appetites exceed Alexandra's capacity for dominance continues to place an imbalance in our relationship.

I don't know what else to do other than suppress my needs. Even when D/s is only a part of a romance it won't work if there isn't genuine desire on the part of the dominant.

Sexual self-suppression - a dangerous technique - is the only solution I've been able to arrive at. But it hasn't brought my more traditional romantic ardor to the fore.

Erotic self-denial isn't a precision tool. Periodically it shut off my D/s desires. One night I was having so much trouble reaching slave space that it was difficult to cope with pain. I came close to saying we should just stop for the evening.

The risk is that I may simply shut down sexually. Something that the failings of my prior relationship forced me to do.

I'd hoped we'd spend enough time as owner and slave this last week that my more normal romantic lusts would reassert themselves. But no luck.

I value my relationship with Alexandra too much to want to see it fail.

Seems like a bright clever guy like myself should be able to discern and implement a fix for it all.