D/s: An Imperfect Session

Practice makes perfect they say and even clichés can be true.

It having been almost a month since we'd acted as Goddess and slave it isn't surprising that things didn't go perfectly.

We were in bed and I was licking her feet when she decided to collar me. I was delighted for both of us: it had been too long since we'd each had a chance to express these parts of ourselves.

But as I crawled behind her to the living room the phone rang. We both knew who it probably was. Even though the phone went unanswered the possibility that it meant an unwelcome visit by an former lover kept distracting me.

And the dog seemed to think my licking Alexandra's boots somehow involved it.

At least twice I forgot to address her properly. Possibly too much of my mind was still focusing on the telephone. Or I may have simply been out of training. It isn't something I do to earn punishment.

She said that she didn't feel like I was really under her control. I was anxious to please her. But when I really am deep in the slave state my obedience is so automatic that it is hard to say I'm thinking at all. Instead of trying to get into position to do as ordered my muscles seem to place me there without effort.

And she felt out of practice with the floggers and slappers. Not that I could tell. But it diminished her possible pleasure considerably.

I started to go down emotionally a couple of times. She gently kicked my balls and the sensation of a boot hitting my testicles however mercifully is very humbling. And I got confused when licking mud off her heels. I couldn't tell if the grime was on my lips or her boots. When she pointed out a chunk I'd missed I shivered.

While I regret our session wasn't more satisfying for both of us I take away the lesson that sometimes the experience won't always be perfect.

And I wonder what we can to do make it better. Put the dog in the computer room perhaps. Though she may let out an awful yelping. And big Do Not Disturb sign on the front door for unwelcome ex-lovers.

More thoughts on this later.