Funk Is Not Funky
» Relationship
Our day ended with me rubbing Alexandra’s legs and her passing out. I didn’t want her distorting her neck by sleeping on the couch so with much effort I got her off to bed.
I massage her back, legs and feet throughout the day. Many people incorporate this as service in D/s. I’m glad we don’t. One of the great pleasures of being with her is knowing that I can please her at any time of the day with my hands. It is really wonderful to see her respond.
I’m in the black mood of the erotically thwarted. Fighting off ugly thoughts.I’m mature enough to take this as another lesson that the mix we seek - both conventional romance and BDSM - isn’t easy. Little that is worth achieving ever is.
My dark mood doesn’t leave me loving her a whit less. Plenty of couples have these moments without D/s.
I know I’m lucky to have found her and accept that work is required to give us a happy life together.
Honey, when you read this just remember that I love you.
Comments
Like I have said earlier we are in troubled times, even though we are lucky to have found eachother. Mixing D/s and a normal-love relationship together isn’t as easy as it may seem on paper. I too occasionally find myself frustrated and get a similar feeling of lack of sexual esteem, doubting my femininity and feeling gender dysphoria, or having a sense of dominance that I can’t quite bring to the surface.
The answer is to know that, like you said, we are lucky to have found eachother.
Posted by: Alexandra | August 12, 2005 11:23 PM