Loss and Separation
» Relationship
Alexandra had to return home yesterday.
As we evolve each our times together take on unique qualities.
Easily I can imagine how it could’ve been better. But I don’t burden myself with self-reproach or regret. There was the beauty and joy of her companionship.
Experienced in the slights of mind for concealing and postponing emotional pain I play the stoic one as we wait for Zero Day when I lose her.
In the back of my brain is that sick feeling of loss: emotional nausea. But I know I need to, ahem, butch up and try to make her next return home even better.
Besides each time we are together she gives me joyous experiences that many live their entire life without.
Thank you, honey, for sharing my life.
