Ideal Female Sadist

A reader once told me this is an early photo of Midori.

More than anything I need to feel that she finds pleasure in hurting me.

My suffering may be the equivalent of art, music, literature or perhaps simply food for her. It is that part of her psyche that activates my ability to accept pain as something beautiful.

Competence: she has honed her skills. That she has studied, practiced, even hurt herself to master the devices she will use on my flesh is profoundly arousing. (Matter of fact descriptions of acquiring that kind of mastery arouses me in a way porn never can.)

Her manner: she-wolf, bitch, goddess, clinician, ironist - sigh - each are equally wonderful. Whichever is right for the moment, will enable the flow of her power will take me into the private theatre she will create.