Sick & Pererted & @#&%!!!
» S&M Fantasies
Many - most? - all? - sadists have some damned dark and demented desires. Mostly they don’t talk about them: especially at the most extreme end.
I’m glad to see one - Bitchy Jones (no surprise) - own up to her fantasies of inflicting nasty, brutal, extended misery unto the point of death.
And then I love death by abandonment. Just getting bored and walking away. Leaving him chained or tied or caged. Staked to the ground with his mouth packed full of salt. Leaving him to die because I’m bored. Starving, thirsting (fuck – always such a favourite: denying him water or air – both so hot - such quick slick simple routes to begging desperation). Him scared and alone. In the dark. Wishing for nothing but me to return.
Not because it is my idea of erotica. Like some helpless mouse before a snake I sometimes look at these confessions. Ultimately I close my eyes. Often I don’t really want to know the details. I can be a timid creature.
Yes, Alexandra has some. That doesn’t diminish her affection, love, tenderness, compassion and empathy for me. She isn’t going to enact them.
Most sadists don’t confess them. Perhaps to not frighten away their favorite masochist.
Maybe more from a sense of shame. Or at least conflict.
Likely they don’t want to even theoretically violate the code of safe, sane and consensual. They don’t want to sully the image of BDSM folk in the eyes of the vanilla majority. Like the most nuanced explanation of risk aware kink is going to make them think more kindly of us.
So Mr. and Ms. John Q. Sadist: feel free to tell us your worst.
(Maybe the Fetish Fairy will visit.)
Comments
I’m going to eventually write a proper post about this, because it is specifc to the point of strangeness.
I have a fetish for nailing people to things.
That’s about the most brutal ‘blood and gore’ fetish I have floating around.
Posted by: Eileen | July 13, 2007 5:24 PM
where to start?
I’ve got quite a few, and Bitchy’s sounds breathtakingly wonderful.
Posted by: Myles | July 14, 2007 3:54 PM
I don’t confess my most demented desires, because that kind of stuff freaks people out and makes them look at you even funnier than they do already. I don’t talk about it, because people don’t want to hear it.
I wish I did have someone to have those kinds of conversations with - I came way too close to confessing some really twisted shit to a coworker the other day. Yikes.
I don’t have a sense of shame about my desires though. Even the really sadistic ones.
I’m going to have to blog about this…
Posted by: almost.. | July 15, 2007 12:50 AM
i am willing to be trampled and stomped by people who have the intent to kill me.
Posted by: jim | August 15, 2007 12:26 PM
I’m sort of a femdom (at least I play one in my relationship, and enjoy doing so) and definitely a sadist, but my fantasies are pretty mild.
Telling my slave what he did wrong that I’m going to paddle him for, laying out the details of the punishment, and having him go over my knee to take his strokes - firm, heavy ones but not more than he can bear, but going on for a long time, and with him knowing it is his absolute duty to continue because he is being punished.
Strapping my lover into a machine that will perfectly bring him to the brink of orgasm over and over on my command, with no danger of letting him come unless I tell it to. I hear him beg me with increasing urgency as the hours go on.
[In another time and place…] Watching another woman being whipped while I await my own whipping.
Mostly my fantasies are, well, more fantastical than my reality, but not actually harsher or more scary than what I would do.
I wish I had some juicier ones!
Posted by: devastatingyet | August 18, 2007 7:20 PM
Both “punishment” and orgasm control fantasies work pretty well for me.
Posted by: Richard | August 18, 2007 8:26 PM