Training Fantasies Examined
» S&M Fantasies
Why my fantasy life tended to more and more narrow down to lots of harsh - dangerous/impossible - conditioning scenarios has baffled and even troubled me. In a thread following a story by Myles I began to grasp the underlying drive.
Erotic power exchange with Alexandra has been the most deeply satisfying when it seems as if my volition deserted me. It was if my back brain was hardwired to her will. Obedience was effortless because disobedience no longer was imaginable.
Maybe some guys can drop into this on demand (from my reading, not really) but I can’t. It is rare and special. More so than I wish. But life’s best moments are notoriously difficult without regard to kink and fetish.
So the harsh training and conditioning fantasies allow me to pretend that servitude has become emotionally involuntary. Unrealistic to be sure but makes for a pleasant erotic reverie.
Earlier:
- Attitude Adjustment I
- Constructing the Perfect Fantasy
- The power of protocols, rituals, rules and ceremonies
