Focusing on Pleasing Her
» Worship & ecstasy
One of the best things about my relationship with Alexandra is that we talk often and honestly.
A few nights ago we were sitting on the couch Alexandra told me that when I was acting as her slave too often I was thinking of myself. My smart assed masochist, pain whore side was causing me to focus on my own pleasure - seeking stronger pain - that of pleasing her.
The next time she took control of me I found that having been told did reinforce my conscious desire to keep my attention on doing what she wished and keeping my own cravings in the back of my mind.
There is no escaping my almost overwhelming need for physical pain but when I am focused on making her happy my joy in serving her is very beautiful.
