Masochist's Envy

Below are a couple of extract's from Obsidian's weblog.

I've been here:

That way she speaks when she has let slip the wicked dominant woman in her. That way she talks to me that I have no defense or resistance for. That way in which my body moves to obey before my mind can grasp what is happening.

I hope to one day go here:

I was mad with the sensations. I was saying "Ow!" she told me later. But in that moment when she had me like that. A way I had never been, I felt a way I have never felt. Time seemed to slow for me. I tried to scream "I love you Mistress!" to her. But all that would come out was sobs. I won't try to describe that moment more than that. It's too personal. But I can tell you in that moment I have never, NEVER felt anything like it. More than pain, more than pleasure, more than lust, more than love. She could have told me in that moment that she was god, and I would have believed her without question.